Sometimes I Get so Real!

'Fear'. That's all I have all over. Since, the childhood of mine, I was always an optimistic one. I always believe, my future will be all good. Suddenly, RI realize today, I forgot to appreciate my every 'present moment' in hoping of better tomorrow. I forgot to live. This unending cycle yet runs. I never accepted what I have in the present. I never celebrated my 'moments'. During my high school, I dreamed of being a job holder. During my job, I dreamed of having more money and so and so. I always worked so hard. I never was wrong. I always did a good job. Most of the people who know me appreciate me and my work. Today, I am thinking, 'What am I worried about? Why am I in so hurry? What is my ULTIMATE AIM?' I am not getting an answer. Each day, I am only piling up questions without any answer. When I start something new, fresh, I have a fear, if it goes right. When it goes right, I have a fear if I would be able to keep it up. When I ride a bike, I have a fear if I meet an accident. I am forgetting to enjoy and celebrate my journey during this because I am having a 'FEAR' inside me all. When I am with companions, family or colleagues, I wish to be alone. When I am alone, I wish to be with them. I am always busy in finding something interesting in order to satisfy myself and I ignore my 'moments'. When I am sad, I am busy in finding some third party or great philosophers' quotes to make myself content and happy. Indeed, I forgot to live. Indeed, 'Fear', that's all I have all over me! Each moment, I am living with 'fear'.